Yes..

Even the legit joker who's always surrounded by a lot of people could feel lonely too.

3AM Blogging (Not Recommended)

Mad world it is that I'm currently living in.

I dont know, I am losing my faith to everything I'm seeing.

So unrealistic. So sarcastic. So sadistic.

Nothing is able to be something to hold on to.

I'm losing my faith.

To love.

To life.

To miracles.

To reality.

Am I seeing them wrong? Or is it just my illusion?

Am I calling it right? Or is it just my occasional thoughts?

Are you listening? Are your eyes wide open? Is your heart still there?

The insane is the sane. Be insane. It's what the world wants you to be.

But never damage the innocents. They're not there yet.

They're the pure sanes. Let them be.

And in the end, you just have to hold on to yourself.

Hold on to something, or you'll fall for anything.

Be strong, believe your belief.

The storm is coming, you just have to believe, hold on, and be insane.

Thats how you pass through it.

Mad world it is that I'm currently living in.

“Every single thing you do now, defines who you are gonna be in the next 5 minutes. Never, never underestimate the power of Time. It’s magic”

Vin

(in her own me-time after the rain)

Boys, Consider These

‎- While you’re ignoring her, another guy is giving her attention.

- while you’re giving her problems, another guy is listening to her problems.

- while you’re too busy for her, another guy is making time for her.

- while you’re making her cry, another guy is trying to make her smile.

- while you’re not sure if you still want her, another guys already figured it out.

ATTENTION!

Sooo, I havent been posting new posts lately here. That's pretty much because I'm a busy mustard who doesnt have time to update ALL of my social network accounts at the same time. So yeah, here I am again, trying to fill the blog-emptiness again with some new posts.
But, since I am now in a rush and I'm gonna have class *and quiz* at 1pm, so lemme just put everything on my tumblr here. Yes, I got a tumblr now and I've been posting there more than I do here. Hope you dont mind :)

Click me! I'll bring you to Vin's tumblr!

This Morning...

It's early in the morn when I'm writing this. I just woke up from a quick sleep after a hard and tough night at the meeting. And all in a sudden, I felt like telling the world something.

43 awesome people with different creative minds. That's how I'm gonna describe this class I'm leading. At first. Later did I know, these 43 lives are more than just awesome people with creative minds.
It was at the orientation, when we first met.
It was good, and we were all wearing white with the innocent faces wondering what was gonna happen.
I recognized some faces in a glance.
I was sensing something.
The first time I came to the class for our first subject, I knew I was sourrounded by the right people.
And yes it's true.
It's more than true.
I fell in love. I fell in love with these people.
No one knows how much I love my class. No one knows how much I care about my class. No one does.
But deep inside, here, in my heart, these people mean the world... to me.

I love you all MBTI B 2011. Di titik ini, di pagi ini, detik ini juga, adalah titik dimana saya betul2 merasa nyaman berada dikelas ini. Dititik ini saya sadar penuh bahwa saya sedang berada pada kumpulan orang2 yang baik. Satu hal yang saya ingat tepat sebangunnya saya dari tidur adalah kalian.


I'm not much of a writer so, I'm just trying to speak these out with my own way. Coz I know, I need to. I need to let you all know. Saya bangga, saya bangga dengan MBTI B 2011. Saya sayang. Saya merasa nyaman. Saya mau, kelas kita tetap kompak selamanya. Tidak peduli apakah nanti beberapa dari kita akan selesai lebih dulu, tenggelam dalam kesibukannya, dan pada akhirnya... menjadi tua.
Saya ingin menjadi seorang sosok teman bagi siapa saja. Tanpa terkecuali. Kita semua sama, kita semua satu, kita MBTI B 2011.
Kelas ini berkesan. Kelas ini bakal terus berkesan sampai saya tua nanti. Dan, saat saya benar benar menjadi tua nanti, saya ga akan pernah lupa, kalau saya pernah menjadi bagian dari MBTI B 2011.

 

 

Pasti bisa, harus bisa, memang bisa, MBTI B 2011.

Farewell

My nightmare is to see people I love go away from my life.
That's probably the reason why I want to live a lot longer as long as I can. To find someone new, to replace those who have gone.
I always love the warmth of morning sun. It comes for a "hi" to me in my bedroom when I woke up. It's always warm and somehow relaxing. It's like the universe proving you that it loves you.

What do you think of when it happens like that? I'd think about all my life in 16 years. What I have done, what I havent done. What I have said, what I havent said. Who I loved, who I didnt love. What I've left. Where I havent been. Happiness, sadness, memories, family, deaths, births, mistakes, pride, laughs....

Until it gets me to a point that... I'm getting older. Everyone's getting older. Everyone's leaving in every second on earth. And everything dissapears. Both in peace and tears. Both what's dead or alive.
It's never forever, darling. Friends and family. The loved ones and the whores. We'll all be together again in the end.

But I dont want an end. I want, now. I want to be with those I love now.

Farewell, childhood.

Mind-Doodles

It's, on a low scale, frustrating.

Age. Places. People. Technology. Distance. Life. Friendship. Love. Rules. University. Hair. Blood pressure. Bedroom.
Happiness.
Happiness could be frustrating. Frustration could be fun.
Am I going crazy? I always am.
Am I an alien? Always.
It gets me to a point that alien is actually cool. It's different, and what's better than being different?
My goal to spend my life here for 4 more years is to learn. To learn about things in life, to be a discipline person and to appreciate everything I have in my life.
My life is pretty much coming back together now. The environment here can both pull you up higher or down, miserable. I choose to have a good environment. I dont want to make a mistake. I have to like it here right now and for the next years. Life's good.
I'll meet my old friends too in Uni by the way. Which is a very exciting thing cause I miss all of them. There'll be stories to tell and stories to learn :]
Dad said I could go to wherever I want with a requirement: straight As.
That's just another motivation. I cant just stay here in this place for any longer. I'd do whatever it takes to get me somewhere else. Or more specifically, Australia.

I am not frustrated. That was just an "intro", a warm up for this blog. I am happy, living a really good life and still not eating fish.

Midnight Writing

I'm writing this in the middle of the night. I cant stand my eyes but I really want to say something here.
So I was chatting with my friend yesterday, a junior in my highschool. Here are some of the whole nearly 2 hours chat I can remember.
A: Pure statements need pure facts. its a shame that thoughts are not facts.
A: I do freestyle, not choreography shit.
A: When it gets to the point where you dont know what your saying, its the point when you speak your mind.
A: Too many strong people holding this country.
A: I told you, my brain thinks too much.

And many more. I even asked him to remember everything he said and write it down and email it. The convo was interesting. And I'm truly amazed that a boy like him, which is a lot younger than me, could ever think about all those heavy stuff. From life, social, humanity, politic, education system, love... I gotta say that he's a genius. He's a damn genius in his own way. And at some points I know that being genius isnt only how you score in your academic status, but also how you think about things around you. How you react. How you speak. How you treat the world and all the surroundings. I'm 100% sure there's something out there waiting for him, something damn good.

Another one is from my overseas friend.
"Fuck you, you said your ugly in that vlog your not ugly your pretty don't put yourself down like that here have some of my positivity, I have lots of it".

I have to admit that that was damn harsh. Probably the most, I've ever heard -or read- this year. And he was directing those words, to me, obviously. At one side I hate to read it -and on a low scale, him- as there's the word fuck in there. Fuck, is a strong word. And for God sake I hate it. But at some points I realized he's right. I let myself down for nothing. I gave myself negativity shits. I hated my own guts. I didnt feel good about myself and etc. He taught me about positivity. He reminded me. He brought it back to me. He, who lives miles miles away, and not me.

Soo, I'd love to thank both of these friends of mine for being so nice and inspiring :) You guys are awesome.

BEST Screenshots

:) I know no one's gonna read and see this. But, I dont know how to show my addiction and love for BlackBoxTv. So, all I can do is take some screenshots, listen to their music, watch every vid of them (faved, liked, commented), meet them on Ustream, aaand... write about them :)

Furious Morning

So, I was still in bed, sleeping, while my mom and dad rushed in and ruined my heavenly time. It was freakin 6am and goddamn all I wanted to do was SLEEP, peacefully.
And all this chaos happened. They told me that I need to go outside more and not just sleep my ass all day. Go get a driving license, cooking course, drawing shits, swimming, jogging, renewing my passport, even babysitting if I didnt make them stop. Apparently, they're bored to see me at home.

Bloody holiday. I said I didnt sleep all day! I didnt even take a nap at all for a week! I did yoga, and you know what dad? YOU KNOW WHAT? I wanted to go outside myself since the very beginning of my holiday which is 1 month ago and all I could do was get refused and refused because mom and you were too busy and there was nothing to get myself out of the house. Not even a boat! And I'm sick of hearing all you want me to dos for my holiday which literally sound like me-being-a-maid-in-my-own-house.

While what I want for my summer break are just hunt for some books, buy dvds, renewing the inside of my closet -which means shopping-, vacation, basically, HAVE FUN. geezz God why is it so hard for old people to understand?

No, hell I'm not a rebel. I am never a rebel. I'm not saying that my mom and dad are old people either because they're young -literally and not-. They're not, like, old boring couple at all. They're fun and cool actually. But this is just silly. I found several, um, different opinions with them during this holiday. And I dont know was it just me passing a mind-developing-phase or my parents being weird.
ughhh.

Summer Break Happened

I've been feeling uncomfortable lately. And especially this morning.
First off, I'm not wearing plastic pants and wigs. It's because my dad told me I should do sport more.

BAM. Wut? I already have pilates class every week and I do yoga, arent they sport? Or actually, arent they sport, according to my dad? I mean, I could be sweaty so much when I'm in pilates class. I work my butt out and I feel thirsty after that, arent those what we call with 'sport'? And plus, pilates and yoga make you healthy. And they're kind of body builder exercises, so you're gonna get a better body shape. But I think he just wants me to do some outside exercises. Fresh air, more space. Whatever.

Another thing is actually, my holiday.
"What happened to your holiday?"
"My holiday happened."
Well, as much as I can say I enjoy my holiday, I actually find it -in a low scale- boring. I tried to entertain myself by reading bunch of books, dancing to some music like an I-need-to-pee-ASAP person, snacking, watching dvds that didnt make sense, decorating and cleaning back my room, shopping, book-hunting, and this is my favorite, sleeping.

All of them didnt really entertain me. I'm like grounded. Gosh, no car or bike or even boat to head outside and what am I supposed to do at home with my weird-ass maid that loves to talk to herself? I did lose several pounds but I doubt it'd keep losing because all the snacking habbit is just disturbing. Literally disturbing all my diet.
But I plan on doing some internet stuff, like, building another blog, making the Blackbox TV fam bigger, doing some books review for this blog -YAY- and so on :)

Yh, that's all from me this morning. I gotta do something, kind of in a rush. So, I'll talk to you later! <3

Would you ever try to write a book?

I'd more than love to :)

I'm open like a McDonalds, so ask away

Must Have Books for June!

I've been reading a lot during my holiday and I love it. I have much much love for books. We can be bffs even. So yesterday I was thinking that I could prob give you some book ideas to have. And trust me, I have the best list :)

So first line goes to:
Lauren Conrad's Sweet Little Lies.

she's sweet, isnt she? awww

This book is all about Hollywood and the lies stirred inside of it. I love how LC wrote things in an always funny way. Oh, she writes, actually. Inspiring, fresh and witty! So girly.

And  the second line goes to:
Candace Bushnell's The Carrie Diaries 

 This book, at a glance, looks like a Louis Vuitton purse. And the inside of it is just as interesting as LV purses. Remember Carrie Bradshaw and her life in New York? With her why-is-it-so-complicated love life and the glam of NYC, who knew she was just a small town girl? Innocent and funny. Lots of inspirational lines sprinkled all over the pages. :)

Aaand the last line goes to:
Dan Brown's Lost Symbol 

 If you're tired of girls drama, lies, tears, boys and stuff, then maybe this one is a fresh thrill for you. As usual, Dan Brown is a legit genius. This is the best of his books, I could say. Razor sharp storyline, facts that I never knew existed, brilliant. This novel tells us about what happened in less than 24 hours.


Soo, I think that's it. I only put three books on the list because I know you could never manage to read more than 10 novels in a month. Especially if you're not on a holiday. But please, eventhough you're not gonna read one of these books or even a book this month, make it for next month. Because reading is fun. I know how corny and BS that sounds like but really, be a friend of books.

I hunt for books every month and I try to collect as many good books as I can. I order some here and there, send some bookstores emails, be a bff with them and sometimes I just go to a place where people sell their used books with a very interesting price, and hunt again and again. Do you do the same? You should try :)
ps: I put the link to amazon.com if you wanna purchase them. Just click at the book's titles.

I Will Be, Someday

"What do you think about future?".
"Something that we dont know?".
"Are you worried about your future?".
"Isnt everyone?".

I opened my eyes this morning with a bunch of questions and quotes. Yh, I felt a lil bit older than my age. Isnt everyone worried about their future or at least whats gonna happen with them in the next 5 min? And do they wake up every morning wondering about it like me? Like, what I did this morning?

"Is my future husband really out there? At the grocery? Gym?"
"Are my kids gonna be like me? What if they turn out weepy and crazy?"
"Is my dreamjob gonna be a dream come true? Or is it always gonna be a dream at night?"
"Is my future boyfriend in this meeting room with me too? Or is he in the parking lot?"

And etc, literally there's too many of them. I cant seem to have the answer for each of them because I have no idea at all and -because I'm 16- I feel so bad, stupid, and wacky for not being able to answer them. Because, again, at school, when you cant answer the test you'll feel like a piece of crap sitting there for nothing. Unfortunately, still happens to me.

I just graduated from highschool a month ago -I'm on a 2-month-heaven-holiday-, and I still have this childish and sharp-asker mind. Things I see on movies or things I read on books and people's lifes really get my excitement to ask. Which is prob something that I shouldnt embrace right now. But I cant help. I'm curious. I'm curious about my future and what's gonna happen to me. Is that too much to ask?

I always want to be a busy woman. In a good way. A smart stylish career woman who wears a pair of Jimmy Choo and Bottega Veneta bag. Drive anywhere myself, buy my own car -or cars-, garden party, fashion line launchings, chic work room with a set of fluffy sofa, a trip to Europe for holiday -or Maldives, anyone?-... Who'd refuse all that? Seriously, I'd call that a life. Well, at least for now, as my brain is still rolling like a 12 years old. I always want to be a writer too. Yeah, it's crystal clear that people dont see anything writer-like in me. But heck, I dont care. I will find them in a line, waiting for me to sign their books.

I will be a writer someday. It's just not now, maybe.

And really, sometimes you just dont have to force the stream. I mean, I know it's nonsense but if you're like me, you think too much about future and stuff, sometimes you just have to go with it. Be friend with it. Love it. Love what you have. It'd be quite a boring phase but trust me, life is full of surprise. Wait for your turn :)

OH DONT YOU DARE TO BE A BITCH. I NEED WIKIPEDIA NOW

That's what they said..

she reads?

truth, much, selena?

lol. I'd call it eraser

"only in Rihanna"

I'd do the same, mannnn!

haha so lets just laugh and enjoy life a lil bit. and I gotta say thanks for this tumblr owners for making all these pictures :L credits and all that shits belong to that tumblr site with the link you can see on the pictures.
check them out, more stuff like this they have.
have a great week people! coffee!

Homecoming Announcement!

Hello drinkers!

Well that wasnt a really good intro. Okay, let's start it all over again.

Hello all my coffee drinkers! :) (sounds billion times better)

Soo, what's up? Hows life treating y'all?

I'm here, making a quick post to announce you guys that I'm back to Twitter. Which is sometimes a Yeay or Neay. Haha. But things go normal there, this far. Eventhough it's a lil awkward and weird for me because my previous account (@edgyrevi: deactivated) had 500+ followers and I had a lot of people I could talk to. While this one (@frankenrev) only has 100 followers or could even less :(

So, by this post I'd reaaaaally wanna ask you guys for a lil favor. Or, maybe a lil help :)

If any of you guys have a Twitter account, would you please follow me? You dont have to but would be cool if you did.

Click here to get to my page!

@frankenrev

Thanks for the will and oh! I follow back anyway! :) So, dont worry, I'm a real person that tweets. Not those kind of spam machines that post random links there.

Thank you! I gotta go, bye! <3 

Hope These Make Your Day....

Coz they made mine :)

A Little Thing Called House

well, first, a house obviously isnt a little thing.

A house is always a place where you belong.

That's why the call it Home Sweet Home.

It is always sweet to be at home with your loved ones.

:) 

you have no idea how much I hate maths and physics.

and I think I speak for the whole students on earth

Another Quickie Updates Honey!

three years obeying authority without question. still one thousand four hundred sixty pages left to read..
yeeeh, quick update readers. I'm here doing good with life. Nothing much happened really. everything went good, even better than before. brain is still rolling on fire. making my next steps for life. gonna have a little fun with it haha. all the university thing makes me uncomfortable.. I mean, the decisions it offers. still single and not interested to be in a relationship at anytime soon. lol. still caffeine every week to calm myself down.
cant believe I am this close with leaving the highschool, I feel so old. lol. although I'm just 16.
shit son I best make it to graduate and get a good university and get a good bright and promising future and get a nice sexy husband. :L
well, fuck knows what's gonna happen though and unsure future is what scares me the most now but, Imma do my best..
wish me luck lovelies, wish me luck. I'll see you in the next 5 weeks :)
I love you.

Quicky Update: It's all worth it at the end

been getting texts and phonecalls and everything from old friends lately.. nothing but sad, really.
I miss them all like I miss my childhood. not that I dont wanna meet or talk or everything, I'm not even grounded anyway. it's just that I'm facing my very final exam in the near 3 weeks from now.
I cant seem to have some fun while what's the most important thing is right in front of my eyesss! I dont wanna fail yet I dont wanna miss the party. but hey guys, if you read this anyhow, I'm sacrificing actually.. if all these can make me free from highschool, that means I'm gonna be 24/7 available in the future for you. I'll be yours again. *sounds creepy?* so yeah, it's all worth it :)
just letting you guys know that I miss y'all

Everyday we are forced to make some uncomfortable decisions..

Now, I wish I could look at the future and see what would probably happen with the first choice, the second and so on. And I'd get back to the real life and choose what's best for me.
But unfortunately, I cant.

No one can.
PS: 10 points if you know where I got the inspiration from. 

I Heart Blackboxtv

Everyone loses direction from time to time. But if you got so lost you couldnt find your way anymore.

To hear that tears me up inside and to see you cuts me like a knife

- That was me being emo.. sorry guys

"That's what happens when you drink, motherfucker! You can't remember shit!" - Middle aged guy on cell in Brooklyn

"I wasn't drunk, I was just cheerful." - College girl to friend







my question of the day is: really? does drink make us... forgetting shits? how does it feel? do you drink?

"Ask yourself: What Would Lindsay Do? Then do the opposite." - My fortune cookie I just opened today.

LOL