Dressy Saturday

I've been working on a new project this summer. Yes, this longass holiday cant be wasted for nothing and endless sleep. I've gotta do something. So then, this Saturday, I started my first project. First attempt.
Check out how they turned out :)

Yes, they're all designed by me. Actually, a lot of photos are ready to publish but I was just thinking that maybe you'd get bored to see them or whatsoever, so I'm just gonna show you some of the dress collection :) Let me know what you think and if you're interested to see the rest of my design. I might upload them more in the future :)

And as I havent told you on this blog that I had a line, yes, I do have a line. I've been desiring to have my own fashion line since I was in middle school and its been my dream to design things that people would wear, like mum. But the main obstacle were always my scheds. I was afraid to start coz I thought I wouldnt be able  to maintain it. And this summer, after all the wills and guts I gathered, I officially moved my ass off to werk on this with a bit of help from mum. Lol

God, I had a fun Saturday although I was sick as an ancient granny. Now that's the spirit.

Summer

I understand Summer is trying to figure out. She's been talking about the non-existent of coincidences, and fate in between. And till know she's still figuring out. Summer is sorry, for everything. For the past that happened. For the bees in seasons. Summer  hasn't been a warm season but the coldest instead. When Summer's gone, it wasnt because of a cruelty towards the bees. It wasnt because Summer hated bees. Summer didnt hate.

I've been a Summer.
I've been a Summer this far.
I've been a Summer for as long as I could remember.
I've seen a lot of breakdowns when Summer left. But I never happened to see how severe they were. I never happened to see what it took not to break. But none of those done in purpose. None of those was any intended. Summer was just looking for a meaning, questioning the thin lines between all of her doubts.

And this taught Summer to stop. I dont want to be a Summer forever. Not in anyone's season. At least I hope Summer would find a right time for a season, just to be sure.



Wtf did I just write at 2am omfg I need my bed and unicorn

People I Miss, The Very Fuckin Most

This is the list of the people I currently miss as fuck.

1. Gasoy girls. Fitri, Ira, Meli, Egi, Nisce, and everyone. Apparently everyone I went to middle school with. Dinda, Zahra, Dewi. And omg the nicknames lololol. I miss the moments we struggled together during the last year of our middle school. And how we spent times together. Lunches, hang outs, basketball practices, especially the fresh jokes from the oven. They're the best.

2. Jane V. The girl I've been friends with since I was in... I dont know, playground? Or first grade? I cant remember well, but we've been friends for fuckin yearsssssss! She's the realest, awesome girl I've ever known. Kristen Stewart's number one fan. And her mum's birthday was yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE! STAY YOUNG <3

3. My German teacher. Uhhhh I randomly miss the old late night convo we've ever had years ago. Talkin in German and things in between. German music (lol), German jokes, and a bit of life. This guy is really something, he was more like a friend to me. Oh, and he was still young too. So dont think of anything creepy.

4.  Nathan. This overseas Australian bestie I used to spend my nights with in front of the screen in my summer break. Lol. I miss this person so much. And the ustream moments because my webcam just didnt work :L and Bec. And the cinnamon game that tortured you for a moment lmao.

5. Adinda. The girl I went to 6th grade with. She was and is still awesome and nice and pretty and everything now. I randomly miss her :(

6. People I went to my other elementary school with. I can never forget the mini class we had. That very special one coz we were those acceleration program aliens lol. Indah, Willy (my partner in dancing), Lintang (the chubby smartass guy with something interesting inside the lunchbox everyday), Desma, Nenggar, Fikri, Inayah (she was a cute short haired girl with cute notebooks), Brian, Andreas (AHA YOU PRANKSTER), and just everyone really. I miss the dance practice we had, the performances, the itchy sparky mini skirts, sleepy maths teacher, sliding on the floor with our paper-white socks, taking pictures beside the huge tree branches beside the corridor, and everything.

7. My English teachers. Yes, teacherS, with S behind. I miss all of my English teachers during my study life. Both at school and courses. Except that one... that very scumbag one with bold eyebrows looking like a cartoon. That one, I curse him for life. But the others, I just miss them. Let me remember them.

Mrs. Indah who was so pretty and nice and friendly and humble and gave me the opportunity to be a representative for that speech contest and though I didnt win the speech, I won the wardrobe thingy instead. That was absurd.

Mr. I cant remember the name with glasses and old who always told me not to speak too fast coz he wouldnt get a thing (lol), he was both strict but very loving. He was my teacher at my middle school.

Ms. Gorgeous who had to move out because of some important reason. I did cry and gave her a bee mug. I was sad.

Ms. Quiet. A substitute for this Ms. Gorgeous who moved out. Wasnt really well noticed and um respected as she was really quiet and her voice was reaaaally low. But I did like her still. I respected her as she always had a good point actually. Last time I saw her was when I was doing a grocery shopping about, two years ago I guess.

Amanda. She was gorgeous and very good at teaching. The fact that she was very good looking made  her a model for some photoshoots here. She also appeared at one episode of Termehek-Mehek thingy on TransTV. She always had her nails painted with different colours and that was the cutest thing of her. She had to move out to China and at the last class I had with her, I gave her a purple bracelet because I was a sad bitch :(

Eric. AAAAAAHHHH ERIC. A Canadian. Awesome. Awesome. Blue eyed. Awesome. He taught us the proper way to use the curse words and made us promise him that we wouldnt tell our parents. He brought us snacks to the class. Introduced us his band back in Canada (?) with their Zombie Killah song. Epic. At the very last class I had with him, we arranged a fucked up farewell partay with candles, letters and a cupcake towel lol.

Matt. I had two Matts actually and I did like both of them. Matts are awesome. Both were so good to talk with. The second Matt had even told me that I was loud. Very loud. Lol. The first Matt had ever appeared in one episode of Kick Andy years ago, I guess. He was so witty, and nice, and awesome, and he played instruments well. So well. He ever gave me a full pack of his songs, I still have em now on my iPod :)

Jim. JIM IS AWESOME. He was the nicest person Ive ever met omg. I still remember the very short chit chats we had when we met, asking randomly about things and everything lol. A really friendly, humble, and good to talk to kind of person. He also gave me two copies of Dan Brown's books when I told him I was desperately looking for them. :)

8. My cabaret team. Yeah, I did drama/theater/cabaret when I was in middle school. I always loved every moment I spent to practice and be with them. They gave me opportunities to act, dance, and sing. I am so thankful that I was a part of them. In fact, I was the president kind of thing at the moment. I remember our performances. I still have the records :) I remember we practiced in this mirror room on how to walk, run and dance without making noise on the floor, how to talk loud and clear, how to act and be someone that is completely out of ourselves. I remember they taught me how to slap someone perfectly lol. Everything. Thanks in advance Smile Cabaret :) I've never had a chance to see any of you guys again but I sure wish you guys are doing well.

9. EEP Ladies. Amalia, Mila, Nana, Yunita, Audi, and everyone I met in EEP. They were the best ladies ever. Especially Amalia, Nana and Mila who went through a lot of levels with me together. They were there to have my back at my hard times. I remember the sushi and ice cream time we always had after class. Now that three of us are separated by distance in our own paths of study. Would be hard I know to reunite again but I always wish you girls the very well this world could ever offer.


Oh shit I shed a tear.

Exams, Miley Cyrus Engagement, etc

Hi people! I'm listening to Nicki Minaj's Starship right now.

Okay that was pretty random.

Anyways, I just wanna let you all know that I'm gonna have a quite enough break from my finals for like a day or two. So, I can take a chance to write again here. Ah, there are a lot of things to say. So, where to start...

Just a quick review about my finals, they've been bitches. Economics was the very most pain in the muthafuckin ass. Kind of regretting how I've been lacking of concentration lately, I couldnt just blame everything to my subjects either though. Although the lecturers were mostly scumbags. But I shall admit that I havent been focusing on my finals at the beginning. Only when it came to the second and so on days, I pulled my very best effort to think. I've been getting distracted a lot by a lot of things :( I'll talk about it on another post.

Oh! And Miley Cyrus is fuckin engaged!!! Ahhh, I know it's too late to write about it now, but I've just got a chance to do so. I'm so fuckin thrilled omg. When I read about the news, I was like "REALLY?". Because Miley is just 19 and Liam is 22 and if they're just gonna stay engaged for two years or so untill Miley gets a bit older and so does Liam, then that'd be fine. BUT NO. They have chance to get married at anytime soon! By the time I read that story.... I feel like my childhood is completely over.

Oh and I miss everyone :( I miss my old friends and everything I used to do or have or eat or drink or play or whatever I just miss my past so bad. I know that we, people, cant stay attached to our past but you know what makes it that way? Memories. Memories stay just the same. They dont change. And they're the most perfect, priceless thing that you can ever have forever.

Couple of days (kind of like, a week) before my finals, my girls from my middle school asked me to hang out just to have some girls chat. Considering that we hadnt met each other for years. And I was gladly accepting it because I miss them a lot, but then I had to cancel it due to my meeting scheds. I was sad as fuck.

And I miss reading good books. Alone in my room with a cup of coffee in the morning or night with windows open. I miss it. Real bad. I've been busy minding stuff that I feel like not doing lately :( I feel like pleasing people but not even a second for myself. And that's just sad.

Well, I guess enough about me bitching about my life right now. I believe things would get better and end eventually. Good things for those who wait! :)

Sunday Sister Day Out

My sister has been crazy about that Rilakkuma bear lately. She's been collecting her Rilakkuma stuffs since like, months ago. From eyes mask, keychains, to bags. And today, dad asked me to keep her company to one shopping place called PVJ (Paris Van Java) to take her orders in one of the shops there.

Well, the proposal was given early in the morning where I was just gonna take a big spoon of my breakfast to gulp. First thing came to mind was I was actually planning to revise the whole day for my finals next week, but secind thought came that I had intention to purchase some stuffs too. So, a bit heavy hearted, mum and dad drove us there and just left us to hang out there by ourselves. A bit too early, it was so good to walk around a mall with rare people.

Firstly, we went to the very first floor, to grab some snacks, things we needed at home and a bit of my medicines there. And then after spending hours inside looking at shits and playing with hamsters, we got our butts out. Next, we walked straight to the shop that had my sister's orders. I forgot the name but they do have a lot of Rilakkuma shits there. From plushies to iPhone cases. My sister was so excited to get her orders.

Finished taking her orders from days ago, we walked to find some DVDs and possibly Birdy's or Kimbra's album. A bit dissapointed, I didnt find any. FYI, I've been a fan of Tintin since I was little, and I've been collecting the comics and the mini figures but I shall admit that it is hard. It is hard to be a collector. So, when I asked the man if they had Tintin DVD, they didnt have any. I'm sad :(

We kept wandering around, entering a lot of shops such as Zara, Topshop, Cache Cache, Dorothy Perkins and so on and so on but stil, I didnt know what to get. My sister ate some Bingrae. We nearly made a same cute door hanger, so we stopped at Rumah Bagus. But seeing a bunch of people are buzzing the tiny place, I hated to go in there so we left. At the very end, finally we stepped in to Sogo. Looking for some shirts or something good to wear, I found myself a cute top.

Not sure why, looking at the very simple model, I got fuckin attracted to this top at my very first glance. The colour of white and navy blue stripes, and a bit of weirdass pattern just caught me. You can actually pair this with your favorite blue jeans, whether its the short one or long, it'd still be cute I believe. Oh and of course, good ol' vintage oxford shoes.


Oh God.. why...

Eargasm Playlist

I've been listening to some artists over and over lately. Here I give you what I think is the worth-to-listen list for this month. Some of the songs arent new but who cares right, the new ones arent always good nowadays.

1. Birdy.
Suggested tracks: all of the songs on her debut album, Birdy. Plus, the one on The Hunger Games album, Just A Game.
This lil angel deserves to be heard even more. She does cover a lot but she also wrote some originals herself. And she's frickkken 16!

2. The Civil Wars
Suggested Tracks: Poison and Wine, To Whom It May Concern
The way they sing is just flawless. The voice of Joy is deep and somehow mind-haunting.

3. Kimbra
Suggested tracks: Good Intent, Cameo Lover, Warrior
Vintage. Unique. Cant be more specific than that. The music makes you dance. Even if you dont want to.

4. Lana Del Rey
Suggested tracks: Born To Die, Radio
She's fuckin gorgeous. Raised as a native in New York, she made her breakthrough turn-heads with her single Video Games

Aside of all the suggested tracks above, I am all aware that likability is relative. Those could be not so catchy for you, so it'd be wise and good enough to download the whole full album as well. Although the favorite tracks might be different to me and you, but one thing I can guarantee is that they're all worth a listen.

Have fun playing with the new playlist! Eargasm!

Birdy Day

Hey people!

I've been having this crazy addiction to Birdy. If you happened to listen to her songs, go check out Skinny Love and 1901. I have all of her songs on my iPod and been fancying the way she sings.

So today, as I had nothing much to do, I piano-played her Skinny Love over and over for about 3 or 4 hours. I was actually thinking to make a cover for the song, vlog about it and upload it on Youtube like those cover amateur singers out there, but considering that I sound more like a dying whale when I sing, so I kept it all myself. No. Big no.

The song is sort of tricky to play. Not sure if that was because it's been ages to me to play my piano or the song was really finger-twisting. But overall, you shall try to listen to her songs. She's awesome. A bit of a hipster icon from the style. Fabulous piano skills. I love her. And you know what? She's freakin younger than me!!! :-)
And here is the part of the lyrics of what I'm currently listening. Let's say, my favorite part.

"...I've seen fire and I've seen rain.
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end.
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend,
But I always thought that I'd see you again..." - Fire And Rain (originally by James Taylor)