If I could posses any super power, I would go greedy. I would like to ask for the power to control the time, to control other's minds, split into several copies, snaps fire from my finger, and probably... fly.
Summer has been really great. Well, the break is for 3 months and I should say it's a pretty long and satisfying break for the restless me in the past months earlier. But I feel like, even in the longest holiday and break, I still couldnt rest my mind completely. Like, some stuffs just happened. You know... Things were not so good at the earlier phase of my holiday. We'll get back to that later. But yeah, things were not so good and those hardly keep me relaxed. Now that it's over. Temporarily (yes, we'll get back to that later).
I couldnt bother not to think of what's gonna happen in the next semester of my academic life. First, they're gonna move the campus (not literally) to somewhere far than the one we used to go last semester. And my house is apparantly a lot closer to the old campus building than the new one. So here's the thing, I got some options. I could live in a rented dorm like most of the students there, I could drive back and forth for about 1-2 hours every single day, or I could rent a room but still drive back and forth every single day. How is this a big deal for me? Why Vin, students all around the world do the same, live far from their family, survive alone, and so on and so on. Well you my friends, clearly dont have any idea of how the circumstances are there. I mean... I would say that it's not even a proper place for any mankind. I first thought and accepted to drive back and forth every single day, but then the schedules of my classes out and I found out that I'll be having 7am classes for the straight 3 days of my classes. Which means it's nearest to impossible to drive for an hour or more to get there.
So the confusion begins there. Whether I want to rent a dorm or just drive everyday. I still couldnt imagine myself living alone there all by myself. No, I'm nowhere near to be a spoiled brat, but come on... I find it personally hard to live separated by my family. My family has been the main reason of most of the things I did and is my main source of strength of my life. And being far from them would be like a complete nightmare for me. But I couldnt afford to think of how I'd be driving along for an hour in the morning everyday without getting my chronic fatigue symptoms back.
Another thing is, I'm currently a main leader of a, lets call it, campus event. It's a pretty big one. And it would be held on November or something. Those things about my committee flies accross my head all the time and it gives me wrinkles between my eyebrows, which I hate. I really want to, for once, forget about it. Just be free. You know, free. Without any burdens. Lightweightly free and happy. Is it too much to ask though?
Another thing of another is, the fact that I created the ideas for my campus' orientation, I should be on the spot at the day to maintain how it goes. I wouldnt reject as I'd always love new spotlights. But the date and time are just the time where I'd be on my way back to town. Which is impossible for me to make to be on the spot at the certain day. I am now still trying to figure this out. Mum wouldnt allow me not to come with the entire family, and getting home earlier by train is impossible due to the unavailaibleness of ticketss for that certain date. So I have no choice but to be a no-show later. Idk how to let my seniors that I work with know about this. Trying to eager myself up now.
Wish me luck.
Summer has been really great. Well, the break is for 3 months and I should say it's a pretty long and satisfying break for the restless me in the past months earlier. But I feel like, even in the longest holiday and break, I still couldnt rest my mind completely. Like, some stuffs just happened. You know... Things were not so good at the earlier phase of my holiday. We'll get back to that later. But yeah, things were not so good and those hardly keep me relaxed. Now that it's over. Temporarily (yes, we'll get back to that later).
I couldnt bother not to think of what's gonna happen in the next semester of my academic life. First, they're gonna move the campus (not literally) to somewhere far than the one we used to go last semester. And my house is apparantly a lot closer to the old campus building than the new one. So here's the thing, I got some options. I could live in a rented dorm like most of the students there, I could drive back and forth for about 1-2 hours every single day, or I could rent a room but still drive back and forth every single day. How is this a big deal for me? Why Vin, students all around the world do the same, live far from their family, survive alone, and so on and so on. Well you my friends, clearly dont have any idea of how the circumstances are there. I mean... I would say that it's not even a proper place for any mankind. I first thought and accepted to drive back and forth every single day, but then the schedules of my classes out and I found out that I'll be having 7am classes for the straight 3 days of my classes. Which means it's nearest to impossible to drive for an hour or more to get there.
So the confusion begins there. Whether I want to rent a dorm or just drive everyday. I still couldnt imagine myself living alone there all by myself. No, I'm nowhere near to be a spoiled brat, but come on... I find it personally hard to live separated by my family. My family has been the main reason of most of the things I did and is my main source of strength of my life. And being far from them would be like a complete nightmare for me. But I couldnt afford to think of how I'd be driving along for an hour in the morning everyday without getting my chronic fatigue symptoms back.
Another thing is, I'm currently a main leader of a, lets call it, campus event. It's a pretty big one. And it would be held on November or something. Those things about my committee flies accross my head all the time and it gives me wrinkles between my eyebrows, which I hate. I really want to, for once, forget about it. Just be free. You know, free. Without any burdens. Lightweightly free and happy. Is it too much to ask though?
Another thing of another is, the fact that I created the ideas for my campus' orientation, I should be on the spot at the day to maintain how it goes. I wouldnt reject as I'd always love new spotlights. But the date and time are just the time where I'd be on my way back to town. Which is impossible for me to make to be on the spot at the certain day. I am now still trying to figure this out. Mum wouldnt allow me not to come with the entire family, and getting home earlier by train is impossible due to the unavailaibleness of ticketss for that certain date. So I have no choice but to be a no-show later. Idk how to let my seniors that I work with know about this. Trying to eager myself up now.
Wish me luck.
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